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Rosie said it best: “We CAN do it!”

Jan 20, 2017.
I feared for the worst.
I feared that civil war would break out.
Civil war did not break out.
Yet 400,000 human lives lost in less than one year for no other reason than sheer stupidity, mismanagement, incompetance….WOW.
All the lies, the nonsense, the conspiracies…WOW, just WOW.
How???? How can that happen?(Yes, I’ve read all the “theories of How” but, but, but I still say to myself, “How? No! Wow!”)
And then just when we thought we could allow light and hope into our lives, Jan. 6th “happened”.
I still have no words for that event.
Trauma takes a long time to process.
Our collective trauma has not yet been processed.
Among the more heart-warming days were the Women’s Marches.
While I did not go to Washington DC, I did attend the marches in Chicago in 2017 and 2018. We learned to be fighters, resisters, we learned about our government. We learned that by working together, in Rosie’s words, “WE CAN!”
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Darkness into Light. But did you know that Devi means Goddess?!?

I’ve been silent.

I felt squashed.
Heavy.
Frozen.
Surrounded by traumatic events, I retreated and did nothing. (Tell me I’m not the only one?)

DARKNESS.

January 2017 to January 2021 has been burdomsome.
*cough*  *cough *ahem* To say the least.
Dark. Very dark. Special mention goes to the year 2020.
(Why do we say 20/20 vision when 2020 was anything BUT perfect?)

Will we finally be able to BREATHE? Sleep? Eat? (Me, eat? Thank you, yes, I have been eating.  Ok, ok, hello Little Sumpthin’ IPAs that taste of grapefruit  and Restaurant Style Corn Chips in the artisan looking brown paper bag.  I can hardly zipper up my colorful  hand embroidered jeans anymore. ¡Viva los sweatpants! Right?!) (And for those who haved been able to breathe, literally!, I see you: George Floyd and all the victims of police brutality and victims of COVID19. My heart breaks and bleeds for you.)

LIGHT:

Kamala.
What a beautiful name!
And did you know her middle name is Devi?
(“Devi” means goddess! Did you know??!?)
Isn’t this a good sign? (Ok, so I don’t believe in conspiracies but hey, it’s fun to indulge sometimes in the beliefs about good omens, right?)

Ah. Yes, I do remember back in the olden days of the beginning of start of pandemic life… Yet another f***ing thing to piss me off royally (goddess-ly?) was Biden’s nomination. (Another old white dude? “Seriously, folks?!?”, I shouted on FaceBook to anyone who’d listen. ) Yet we didn’t have 20/20 vision back then, so who knew? Biden’s nomination ended up being the best choice. For this moment in history, anyway. So, yeah, I love you, Elizabeth Warren but, hey, all’s good really, you’re doing great in the Senate and I can’t wait until TOMORROW!!!! <3

JANUARY 20TH, 2021

Goodbye darkness!
Helloooooo LIGHT!